exited but sad and scared

well my hubby will b home in less then a week and i am so exited! i just cant wait 2 b in his arms and b able 2 kiss him and look in his eyes. everything is ready for him 2 b home all the inside decorations are hung up and the outfits are picked everything is clean and ready now its just waiting . my days seem so long and time feels like its standing still. i hate it

i am sad cuz once he gets home we are being re stationed we are going 2 MO . my whole family is in CA all my friends are here everything i know is here basically. i always talk about how much i cant wait 2 get out of CA and how much i hate it but for some reason i am scared and sad 2 leave. we will b about a hr away from sams fam which is good for him and remmi will get 2 know her other side of the fam and he will b home for 3 years. but there is so much i am scared about. i am sacred i wont have any one there i mean i know some people but i dunno its just different. sams mom and i have a interesting background. she hates me and thinks i am a slut who tricked her son in2 marrying me. she has never considered me part of the fam . she says she wants 2 work on things but i dont know. she will never b my mom. like my mom and i have a interesting relationship 2 . we fight alot and cant stand her sometimes. but i dont wanna leave my mom. i want my mom there when i get sick or when something happens with remmi or when i get pregnant again. and i dont wana leave my dad and my sisters. like my youngest sister is my best friend and i cant imagine going months without seeing her i mean i see her basically every day. i just am so scared . what if i hate it you know and i know how sam was when he was younger he was a really big partyer and had so many girls and all thoes girls will b right there. there are alot of his guy friends i dont want him around cuz they are ass wholes and all. and i know they will want 2 come around and all . and i cant really tell him he cant see his friends. but i dont know i just have so much weighing on me. like i schould just b exited but i am having alot of trouble with it cuz i am sad and scared about leaving CA.i mean i will go any were if it means i will have sam home . i dont care were it is will fallow him . but i still cant help being scared...