another holiday with out him

well we are getting ready to spend yet another holiday with out sam.it sucks its one of the hardest parts of the whole deployment thing . he has missed almost every first Holiday of remmis. he missed 1st Halloween he missed thanksgiving Christmas new years her birthday, her second valentines day and now her second Easter. its just so hard we all get to gather as a family and everyone is saying how happy they are to have the family together and all but are family is missing a big part we are missing are husband/dad. its just so hard the days when we are supposed to have him with us he isn't and its just so hard . the times we are supposed to Cherish are family we don't have are whole family. i just hate it hate that he is missing so much. i hate not having my hubby home with me and that remmi goes threw so many holidays and normal days with out her daddy . it just really gets to me...