getting ready for my hubby 2 b home

well we are starting 2 get things ready 2 have him home. we made are banner for the garage last weekend and we made are signs to take with us. i want to make some more little signs and banners for the house, we are making are tshirts this week the ones that say welcome home and all that good stuff. i went to the mall yesterday and spent to much money on stuff for the home coming lol. i have little things to do each week tell her gets home. actually every day tell he gets home. whether it be make a poster with all the pics of remmi sense he has been gone so he seed how she grew or cleaning the car cleaning the house grocery shopping. stuff like that . i still have so much to do. and 4 weeks seems like a long time but when you want everything to be perfect for the homecoming its alot. i just want everything to be so perfect for him and i don't have that much longer tell he is home! which is exiting but scary and nervracking and all that stuff. haha. i get scared and nervous cuz remmi and i have are way of doing things we have are routines and all that stuff . the ways i punish her and the way we live are Dayle life's we have never really had sam around when it was the 2 of us. i am scared that he will come home and it will be hard to make him fit in are life it will b hard to change things to make a compromise on what we both want . i am scared he will feel like he doenst fit in are lifes. its just so much to think about . alot of stuff is really weighing on me right now as i get ready for him 2 be home. we have basically been apart for a year in a half. i have grown up so incredible much i have changed alot . what if he doenst love the person i have growing into of the person i have changed into . he has never really been around me as a mom what if he doenst love me anymore the way i am. i know i love him more then anything and i want to spend the rest of my life with him and if this deployment has shown me anything its how much i really truly need him and miss him and love him. but what if its shown him something else . what if it has shown him he doesnt want to b with me. i dunno its just so much to think about. i thought i would just be so exited to have him coming home but i am scared . i have been threw the homecoming once be for i had fears and all that . but i never thought i would have the same fears this time. i just pray he comes home and things go back to normal.