Monday, June 15, 2009

scared

well for the past year maybe a lil more sense remmi was like 6 weeks old i have been getting these really bad head akes, then more things started happening like i was getting dizzy then i was nauseous all the time then i was always lightheaded and tired all the time and my skin started getting super sensitive like the slightest thing hurt really bad well i keep going 2 the doc and its always something new they always do a preggers test even when hubby was deployed so i knew it wasn't that its been low blood sugar extreme exhaustion vertigo its always something new and none of the meds the give me help. well i am going back 2 the doc yet again. i feel like im there once a week haha and going 2 try 2 find out what it is again. its just scary when my mom was like 28 or something she had a claught in her brain that caused her 2 b paralyzed on one side of her face they thought it was a stroke but it wasn't. and i know nothing about my bio dads side and my gma had brain cancer granted they think it spread from the lung and breast cancer.but its all juts really scaring me, like i am 20 years old and i have had so many medical problems already what is going 2 happen when i am 70. i just feel like its one thing after another and my body is falling apart. i just hate always being scared and being in pain and sick 24 7 its getting so old and exhausting there are days when i cant play with my daughter cuz i am so sick or in so much pain . i hate that . i just want 2 know what is wrong with me and get it fixed...

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  1. I hope you can know soon what is going on. The unknown can be scary!

    Thank you for your comment! Those who experience the loss do enjoy talking about the one they lost. We have those memories that keep them alive.

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